Dear Me,
You will be alright. You will be okay. This past week has been rough, and today was the boiling point of all the bottled up emotions that you’ve been trying to hide and push deep inside the darkest parts of your mind.
You will be alright. You will be okay. You know it is over. There is nothing you can do to change that fact. This, you have accepted. The only way to move is forward. And that’s okay. I know it’s scary. The unknown is scary. Starting over is scary. It’s okay to be scared. But, that is life. You know that.
You will be alright. You will be okay. Stop comparing yourself to others. Stop looking at his profile to see how he’s doing. Worry about you. Focus on you. You’ve given so much of yourself to him before. Now is the time to take care of yourself. All you did was give and give. Be selfish. Focus on you. Focus on being better.
You will be alright. You will be okay. There are others fighting bigger and more complicated battles than you. This is but a step in your journey. It is by no means the end of your story. This experience will help shape you and mold you into a unique person as a whole.
You will be alright. You will be okay. It is okay to cry. Let your feelings out. Bottling them inside only for them to explode is not healthy. It doesn’t help with your progression. Talk it out. Learn to let it go. Stop having pretend conversations in your head. Those do not exist. The ‘what ifs’ only confuse you and cloud your judgement.
You will be alright. You will be okay. Time heals. It sucks that time is slow. I know you’d like to fast forward to two years from now when you’ve comfortably left all this behind you. Such is not the case. Time heals. It forces you to go through all the necessary steps you need to take to get to where you need to be. Embrace the journey of healing. Pick up your shattered pieces and build a completely different you. A better you.
You will be alright. You will be okay. There’s no rush in jumping into a relationship. Enjoy dating. Enjoy meeting people. Enjoy the fact that you are available. Enjoy having guys chase you. Enjoy chasing guys. Enjoy just having a casual meet up. Enjoy a stranger’s company and share stories. Don’t rush. Enjoy.
You will be alright. You will be okay. Keep the faith. It is what makes you unique. Your optimism is what shines most brightly about you. When your faith starts to falter and it feels like the world is caving in on you, take a deep breath and remember that there are people who love you. There are those who support you and want to see you succeed. Do not dwell on the love lost, but on all the love that surrounds you. You are very lucky to have such wonderful family and friends.
You still have much to go through, much to experience, much to learn. This is but one chapter in your life journey. Take it one step at a time. Take it in stride. Enjoy it. Be strong. And most of all, always always remember, that you will be alright. You will be okay.
And Then Life Happens 